

Moving to Utah on my own seemed to be entirely thought out. I was anticipating a full schedule with school and work. Balancing my finances and completion of schoolwork seemed completely feasible. However, working 40 hours a week while completing weekly homework and quizzes in all my classes started taking a toll on me. I always considered myself to be contentedly independent, but living alone in a city where I know no one, with no time for a social life has only made me miss home. As much as I want to just give up and run home to where I have many friends and no bills to pay…I have worked to hard and come too far to give up. With so many obstacles in my way and so many people saying that I’m getting too old, that my grades aren’t good enough, or that the wait is too long and to just get married already…I can’t just succumb and surrender leaving all my hard work to become stripped of its significance and meaning. Living alone so far from my friends and family has caused me to ponder on my life a great deal. In my Human Developmental Psychology class we are studying the transition from adolescence to adulthood, which occurs anywhere between the ages of 18 and 25. I recognized that this moved has forced me to “grow up”. I see a difference in the way I view the world around me, how I deal with new people and how I respond to tough situations. These past couple years have caused me to prioritize the things I focus on and worry about especially now that I am on my own. Before I moved out here I spent too much time worrying about things that didn’t matter and in turn missed opportunities and lost site on what really mattered. Wasting time worrying about guys that I already knew were jerks, gossip about people that inevitably ended up not being true, or comparing my progress in school or life with those who seem to have everything I wanted already, did nothing but created roadblocks in my progress towards my eternal and righteous temporal goals. These last few years of rigorous schoolwork and inevitable disappointment are but stepping-stones on the path that leads to the achievement of the goals I have set for myself. During this time, relationships will form and may eventually end, friendships will be strengthened or wither and I will discover who my true friends are and I will discover who I really am compared to who I want to be. I have learned that it is only by my choices and aspiration vs. my ability to implement that I will become who I want to be.